This is the air I breath...

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 17:19:25 GMT

Congrats! You're Josh! Now go grow a goatee!

What Clueless character are you?
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This is for matty Hall ^

I get to see my boy tonmorrow after 4 weeks, i'm REally excited hes comming home for the weekend. I miss him dearly. Boston with Elaine, Tiff and n boy tomorrow.

Senior year will be fun i think.
Psychology is my favorite calss right now, who knew?
easy calsses except for the fact that i dont have senior privlages becauase of carter! 4 points off
Boston with Elaine, Tiff and my boy tomorrow!
The price of gas is making me MAD, but i do feel horrible for all the victums of katrina though...

In 28 mins i will be out of the joint. Our school is HUGE! ahhhh
Then gym time after that.
love you all <3

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 13:00:57 GMT

last night was amazing, till about 11:30 when matt and i realized his car wasnt where we left it!
ahhh stupid portland and their wanting to make money, so they tow cars.
So last night met up with matt and Han, went to flatbreads, met like all these people, who were pretty damn cool.
coldstones was are next destination.
I got that and wax in my hair/on my face.
Thanks hannah i love you lol

You know when you have this impression of someone and you really like it. Then you find out its a lie and their not who you thought they were...I really hate that.
why cant there be any good guys in this worldddddddd?! ahhhhh lol

Any ways... don't really know whats going on with tonight.
camping still going down?
hmmm leave love.

Baby Grind with me.

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 13:17:38 GMT

Wow, so hmm, last night was hella crazy/ good.
didnt get to sleep till after 2 and stupid brian called and woke us up at 7:15. DAMN him.

A lot has happened since school has ended.
some good/some bad.
I realized/learned a good lesson. Unfortunatly the hard way but we all have to learn some way or another.
Sat. i was an emotinal wreck. Friday night i talked to Steve at like 3 am and my mom heard i was on the phone and gave me a sex talk in the middle of the night. It was jsut embarassing. She told me guys think with the penises. mmm yeah hah pretty much.haa
Steve is a sweetheart though. I'm reall glad i met him.
I couldnt sleep Sat. so i woke up and went to the gym for a good 2 hours.
Hung out with some hott ladies names Chels and Pricey. Went to Chechys for a BBQ with her fam and shit. Took a walk on the beach smoked some cloves and vented to her. I felt better
Went to Deweys with Tiff and some other weird people for a bit, but i left after like a hour cuz i couldnt take it any more, i felt like shit.

I drove around like a zombie not knowing what to do, and finally called matt because hes the only guy i know i can really trust.
He said he was comming to get me where ever i was. I went to his house and just hugging him made me feel so safe. WE cuddled on his bed and i told him everything i was feeling. If only the world was filled with matt's. Elaine and Jess came over because Elaine was hysterial too.
I asked if Matts mom would come talk with us because i love her so much. She made me feel like it was all okay. Everything was going to be ok and no one thought less of me because of what happened.
"all guys are hunters" haha ohh that lady is amazing, i wish she was my mom. Then on the way home i hit a baby fox! :(

BUT last night... went to the club with Elaine and tiff and met like a bunch of people there.
Some crazy simalians started grinding with us lol.
it was alright though, there wasnt that many people there.
Left there with Elaine and met up with Nate, Brown man, Brit and Tom at Scarbrough beach. There was a spooning orgy going on till 12:30 lol
Tiff where are you?!!!? are you ok?

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 23:19:45 GMT

Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake

You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many.
The minute you meet anyone, you can make the crave you almost immediately.
You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss.
A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

3 finals down, 2 more to go, then AMEN!
They really arnt that bad.
Tomorrow should be fun though.

You make me smile. <3
this weekend was fun. Sat. was really fun.
Happy Birthday Emily Cross, i Love you/miss you dearly.
I got my car back and thats kinda cool

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 00:33:01 GMT

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Kissing is my favorite game.

i'm really depressed.
i hate my dad, for a lot of reasons and im not just saying that. i hate the way he treats my whole family and hte way he treats me. he makes me sick..... ahhhhhhh.
today was good up untill 3 1/2 hours ago.

i hate the feeling of being stuck in a box and theres no way out. i really hate being stuck in this house.
i feel like i have no one really "there" any more to talk to...
i really dont like feeling alone.
who wants to hang out this weekend if i can escape from this sucky place called a house?

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 16:39:02 GMT

umm so livejournal kinda sucks ball sack now... no one uses it any more and i cant find out all the gossip going on.

Monday i visited UFM and i absolutly love it. If i get accepted, im going there. I need to get my GPA up though.. poop. I'm going to acctually try next year.
I love the atmosphere there is jsut so chill with coffe shops everywhere.
Theres this store up there called liquid sunshine that i fell in lvoe with. Its just like Mexicali but the have so many mre cloths and amazing jewlery.

umm i went on a hunt yesterday.
for a job that is.
I got applications to:
Michaels,
A.C. more,
home goods,
the curtin shop
and tuesday morning.

opefully someone will hire me!

only 7 more days...then prais the lord!

i already miss all the seniors.... :(
my weight trainning class is so empty and sad.

Theres a lot of boogers in my nose at the moment.

Thu, 26 May 2005 23:41:45 GMT

When i was volunteering today, i was giving this lady named ruth a manicure and the stupid nail polish bottle wouldnt open so she told me to sware at it. That just cracked me up. i love old ladies. I'm going to continue volunteering there jsut for the fun of it because i love it so much.

My new house will be done at the end of the month, i'm really excited.
I got the Sexyest comfoter ever! (who wants to be the first to try it out with mee)

umm... i need to find a job realllly soonnn and make lots of money!

my membership at lifestyles expired. So i think im gonna get one a planet fitness because it like 29487983 X cheaper! Jason, wanna work out now!? and anyone else wanna get it with me, just let me know.

Jess P i love you!

umm... the simpsons are on and i gotta jett

Justin, come home damnit, i miss youuuuuuuuu sweetie.

Mon, 16 May 2005 16:36:48 GMT

1. I miss someone right now.
2. I watch more TV this year than last year.
3. I love olives.
4. I love sleeping.
5. I own a home.
6. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
7. I love to play video games.
8. I have done something illegal.
9. I have watched porn movies. <3
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the "psycho ex" in a past relationship.
12. I like my handwriting.
13. I have acne-free skin.
14. I curse frequently.
15. I have changed a lot over the past year.
16. I have a hobby.
17. I have been to another country.
18. I carry a weapon with me everywhere I go.
19. I have been told that I am very smart.
20. I have broken a bone.
21. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
22. I love rain.
23. I can be paranoid at times.
24. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (if it was cheap)
25. I need money right now.
26. I have tried sushi.
27. I have been to Las Vegas.
28. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
29. I was born in a country other than the USA.
30. I shave my legs.
31. I have a twin
32. I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
33. I am good at styling other people's hair.
34. I am usually pessimistic.
35. I have mood swings.
36. I think prostitution should be legalized.
37. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
38. I have cheated on a significant other.
39. I have a hidden talent.
40. I have been sexually intimate with more than ten people.
41. I am currently single.
42. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
43. I enjoy talking on the phone.
44. I love to shop.
45. I would classify myself as "ghetto".
46. I am obsessed with my LJ.
47. I don't hate anyone.
48. I am a good dancer.
49. I am embarrassed to be seen with my mother or father.
50. I have a cell phone.
51. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
52. I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
53. I have been in a real relationship.
54. I have rejected someone before.
55. I currently have a crush on someone
56. I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life
57. I want to have children in the future.
58. I have changed a diaper.
59. I have had the cops called on me.
60. I bite my nails.
61. I am fatally allergic to something.
62. I have a lot to learn.
63. I have dated someone 10 years (or more) older or younger than me.
64. I am very shy around the opposite sex.ummm, depends on the situation and who the boy is.
65. I am online 24/7, even as an away message

66. I have been rejected by someone.
67. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
68. I have avoided work to play with my blog.
69. I, as a child, learned "the difference between boys and girls" with a neighbor or friend.
70. I enjoy country music.
71. I love my friends.
72. I think that Pizza Hut makes the best pizza.
73. I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
74. I am a perfectionist

75. I love Michael Jackson, and his music, yes.I enjoy some songs.
76. I have watched the television show "Spongebob Squarepants"
77. I have dated a close friend's ex.
78. I am content as of this moment.
79. I have gone scuba diving.
80. I have had a crush on somebody I have never met.
81. I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
82. I play a musical instrument.
83. I strongly dislike math. .... thanks to Ms. Carter
84. I am procrastinating by filling out this list.******
85. I own and use a library card.
86. I have been to Europe. I REALLY want to go packpaking through Europe
87. I have seen "The Lord of the Rings" trilogy
88. I have seen the television show "The O.C."
89. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
90. I like eating Ramen noodles.
91. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
92. I am currently suffering of a broken heart.
93. I consider myself to be a "nerd".
94. I am left handed.
95. I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
96. I enjoy smoothies.
97. I have had major surgery.
98. I have a pet.
99. I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
100. I own 100 CDs or more.
101. I am currently in my pajamas
102. I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" girl/guy..occasionally yes.
103. I will try anything once.
104. I have tried a drug that is illegal.
105. I am a cuddler.
106. I have one or more body parts that are asymmetrical. if you ever took anatomy you would know that everyones hands, feet, arms, legs, etc are all asymmetrical.
107. I am a Republican.
108. I am Catholic.
109. I am a college student.
110. I like to cook.
111. I like to vacuum.
112. I collect picture frames.
113. I get along with my parents.
114. I like Shakespeare.
115. I like to sing.
116. I practice a religion that is not considered "mainstream".
117. I have counted down the days until the summer.
118. I have fulfilled someone's dare at a party or gathering.
119. I am, or was, pigeon-toed.
120. I have been to an anime convention.
121. I had a hard time paying attention at school.
122. I have a car.
123. I am an only child.
124. I work at a job that I enjoy
125. I sleep a lot during the day.
126. I like the taste of blood.
127. I have swam in the ocean.
128. I know how to shoot a gun.
129. I like being the center of attention.
130. I am currently pregnant.
131. I have watched "Sex and the City".
132. I am married.
133. I want to get married.
134. I have all my grandparents.
135. I am a huge fan of lists.
136. I have had my hair cut within the last week.
137. I enjoy jazz music.
138. I am a "morning person".
139. I currently regret something that I have done.
140. I have written a story outside of school.
141. I love Rammstein.
142. cKy is the best band ever.
143. I admire Marilyn Manson as a photographic/cinematographic artist. I HATE HIM WITH A PASSION
144. I love classical music.
145. I think pot should be legalized.
146. I must have ice in my water in order to drink it.
147. I have boxers with sunglasses-wearing ducks.
148. I can pick things up with my toes.
149. I think Frank Sinatra is fantastic.
150. It is a triumph in my life to be healthy for a month.
151. I am currently not wearing shoes.
152. I am an uncle/aunt to more than one person.
153. I have unusually large/small feet.
154. Have read one or more Star Wars books.
155. I've gone skinny dipping by myself/with other people around at least once.
156. I have gotten in trouble for doing things with neo glow worm candies during truth or dare.
157. At this moment in time, I need to pee.
158. I don't get hangovers because I dont drink.
159. I'm listening to music.
160. I have 1 or more tattoos.
161. I like baseball.
162. I've played poker in Las Vegas and won.
163. I am a member of a band or other musical performing group.
164. I have been in an accident in which the vehicle I was in was totalled.
165. I have gone camping overnight in a VW Bus.
166. I have seen 'Buckaroo Banzai' more than 100 times.
167. I have been to more than five heavy metal concerts.
168. I have been embarassed in public.
169. I despise sunlight.
170. I love quoting funny movies.
171. I've almost died.
172. I'm pierced in places other than my ears.
173. I need to go grocery shopping.
174. I love playing tennis.
175. I have ocd
176. I have met a celebrity.
177. I have more than 4 different kinds of lotions sitting on my desk.

178. I love giving head.

PROM PICTURES ARE SOON TO COME...

Thu, 12 May 2005 00:57:27 GMT

I can't believe hes going to be a year old on Sat.

You've seen Alladin, right?

Well....this is where he reaches out his hand and says "do you trust me?"

Mon, 09 May 2005 23:16:18 GMT

	You are a Slutcom 2, also known as the a lil' sleazy level of slutcom. You hook up with people on a semi-regular basis. You may hook up with random people sometimes, especially in a drunken stupor. How far you go will vary widely, but the options are more open and based on the heat of the moment. You hook up more than average, but that's OK.
Take the slutcom litmus test! The slutcom litmus test originated in A Word of Advice.

PROM NEXT WEEKEND!

Fri, 06 May 2005 10:46:41 GMT

01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal. (if you want to)

I had a dream last night that i smoked the most amazing weed with these Indians and my dad. Then somehow Matt Hall came out of the bushes like a jungle cat and smoked with us.

i love volunteering at pine point nursing home. The old ladies are sooo cute and sweet, one gave me a kiss and the other one said i was hte most beautiful girl there. i'm going again today, to ahve tea with them and i'm excited. <3

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 23:43:11 GMT

Since the 2 hotties
Matt
&
James
did this, i felt the need. <3

Your dating personality profile:

Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you.

Your date match profile:

Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Religious - You seek someone who is grounded in faith and who possesses religious values. You believe that a religious person can enhance your life.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Big-Hearted
2. Liberal
3. Religious
4. Funny
5. Athletic
6. Romantic
7. Sensual
8. Adventurous
9. Outgoing
10. Stylish

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Funny
2. Big-Hearted
3. Religious
4. Practical
5. Outgoing
6. Athletic
7. Conservative
8. Adventurous
9. Sensual
10. Romantic

Take the Online Dating Personality Quiz at Dating Diversions

heart renching day...

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 23:35:16 GMT

Today i decided i just wanted to go home from school, because i had a headache and i simply didnt want to be there. I called my mom because my dad hardly does any thing for me, but when i called her work, they said she was at an appointment ,which i had no clue about. My last resort was my dad since i dont have my car, but when i called him he yelled at me, to suck it up because he wasn't comming to get me and didnt have time to deal with me and then told me that my mom probaably has breast cancer and hung up on me. I started bawling my eyes out and freaking out, if i lost my mom i don't know what i would do. I walked around the school like a zombie and found Elaine....God thank you for her, then went to see Ms. Lusk because there was no way i was going back to study after something like that. Ms. L is a pretty cool lady, i think she was a hippie in her day. Finally i got ahold of my mom a hour later and found out, it was all just a scar and she was going to come rescue me. I'm still kind of shooken up though because my grandma died of it, and i Love my mom so much.

I decided i was bored when i got home, so i took pictures to put on myspace, so check em' homies!
<3

Its My BIRFDAY!

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 13:58:08 GMT

I was so graciously woken up by my mom saying happy birthday, then yelling at me at 8:30! ahhhhhhhh its soo early.
So im 17, i guess i can officaly go to rated R movies, yippy skippy haha
Hopefully tonight will be fun, i dont know whats going down, but if its with amazing people, im sure it will be wonderful. <3

The world saw me naked for the first time 17 years ago today. Thats kind of odd to think about

yesterday was actually pretty fun, hah oh so much love.

FISHY FISH!

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 01:11:14 GMT

What's a good name for a fish? AKA, what should i name my betta fish that Elaine got me for my birthday? hmmm, im bad at this game. HELP!

I also have been wondering whats the difference between cake and a muffin? since i have been questioning it, i told my mom i wanted key-lime cheese cake for my birthday instead.

I'm gounded for quite some time. "I'm going no where with my life, becuase i suck at life" -my mom and dad. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm going to ask if i can atleast do something for my birthday on Sat.
I really hope so.

Also the "Frog" (my car) is now PIMP thanks to Chels haha Oh, so AMazing.

We live in a Beautiful world.

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 03:09:59 GMT

I was really worried and upset that Matt and I would never really be friends like we used to. We just talked for about 2 hours and it feels like a big sigh of relief. I know people change and things will never be like they used to, but they are better then they were 3 hours ago. I'm glad. I love him. I also Really love his mom.

Yesterday and today i had a couple really long cries, and it felt sooo good. I don't remebrer the last time i really cried like that. I feel almost refreshed.

Chelsea, thank you for everything and most of all thank you for being yourself. i love you to the moon and back a million times.
Elaine, i love you. sorry i didnt get to talk to you tonight, i'll call you tomorrow darling.

Riki, i love you and i'll be there on friday!

I'm Really sad hockey is over. I miss it sooo much and i miss all the girls, it always helped to keep my life in order and on track. And made me really Happy. Our banquet is on monday though, and im REALLY excited! Hopefully i'll be going to two hockey camps this summer though.

I wish there was a button that would jsut shut off the snow! Or, i wish i was still a little kid and was extremly excited about the snow and i had lots of friends to play in it with me. Some one wanna go sledding and build a huge snowman with me this week?

Now that hockey is over, i have to get a job. Poopy, but i do need money, im sooo poorrrrrrrr.

My birthday is 2 weeks from today. I want to do something really special and exciting, because i have never really had a special birthday. I can't believe im going to be 17, i always thought it was so old, yet i feel so young.

It's getting late and im feeling rather sickly, so im going to watch Beauty and the Beast and head to bed.
I love you all SO much, goodnight.

farwell to the long lived cows

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 18:46:37 GMT

There's going to be no more cows at the heller residence after tomorrow morning.
I'm really sad about it. I'm going to miss my poor cows :(
come say farwell tonight if you must.

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 03:40:44 GMT

more then anything, (besides another day at the spa) I want the movie The Notebook. Its AMAZING.

Happy Brithday Matt and JOSH!
Yesterday was the most marvelouse day i have had in a LONG time.
Chels i love you. Thank you soo much.
We went to the spa and i got a massage. ohhh baby was it good!
Then came back to my house, made chicken fettacine alfredo and had peanut butter cheese cake that was mmm mmm good!
Lots of pictures are soon to come.

a hour delay tomorrow morning would be wonderful.
vacation in 4 days is VERY much needed. If i like you, we are hanging out. no ifs ands or buts about it.

I would LOVE you more then ANYTHING if you came to my hockey game tomorrow! 3:50 @ USM vs. Lewiston. so pleaaaaase come!!!

I love Jelly filled donuts.

im extremly tired so peace out cub scout

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 23:27:06 GMT

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to my LJ, happy BIRFDAY TO YOU!
I just realized my LJ is officially 1 year old today ( haha yeah i know, im a dork) no need to make fun of me.

Hockey game this sat. @ portland ice arena and it starts at 2:10
You best all be there, or i kick your asss <3

Cellular is a really good movie. see it. i command it.

I can't wait for matt's birthday, its going to be AMAZING fun!

I love all my friends so much.
You make the sunshine on the darkest of days.

have a goodnight.

P.S. OMgosh, how could i forget, Green Day is comming to the civic center april 28th! ahhhh sooo exciting!! whos comming with me?

your so tempermental darlin'

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 01:21:21 GMT

These past couple days have been oodles of fun.

i told matt i wanted to eat his face.

SEXY Matty

Umm, we were wearing HOTT Russian hats. <3

I'm totally going to sexify you

good man.

AHHH its seth. THE C master

The snow left a perfect arrow on the tree.

umm matt sniffing hit butt?

I have weight training with Chels and it super duper amazing. My favorite part today was when anthony ripped one when Diaz was talking.
I would really LOVe a snow day ASAP to sleep and have a HUGE snowball fight.

I almost forgot how much i loved The Honorary Title. They are AMAZING.
I'm really tired i think im going to go read and snuggle up <3 niig

DJ and RIKKI, i miss you guys soo much! im depreived.

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 20:49:49 GMT

I've been Smiling a lot lately.
I love it.

Elaine and Chels are the loves of my life
I love hockey and knitting is my new hobby.
My new house should be done in a month or 2

I haven't updated on quite some time, maybe ill do more later because a lot has happend.

I love my Newphew soooo much!

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 00:49:49 GMT

I'm tired of this boring life.
somebodies gotta help me spiiiiiiiice it uppp!

I dont think im going to school tomorrow, only because i dont feel like writing this paper on Macbeth. No matter how hott Mr. Klein is, he can go shit on himself.

I need some christmas spirit. I want lots of snow to make snow forts!and drink hot chocolate while you cant feel your fingers and your nose is still red.
I miss making paper snow flakes. I miss being a kid and being SO excited about christmas. It feels like i have died on the inside, and christmas will jsut past me by like the past few years...
I neeed to go chtistmas shopping.

I'm really worried about you
I miss you.

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 11:24:01 GMT

I got my license!!! Yesterday was AMAZING. Thats all i have to say.

Have a great day. <3

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 00:28:18 GMT

Your Boobies' Names Are: Cheech and Chong

Get your own Boobie Names

Wednesday is the big day.
Drivers test! (eeek! i don't know why, but im extreeemly nervous)
I can techniqualy play hockey again.
and Story of the Year with one beautiful lady and lots of other great poeple.

she don't use jelly.

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 02:50:41 GMT

umm its thanksgiving. I ate a shitload of wonderful food and PIE!
Then i played DDR for my first time, with my family. haha it was crazzy.
all these old fat people trying to move around...

The new spongebob movie is hillarious. Just go see it. Patrick is a cross dresser. And Mr. Hassehoff, well thats another story.

this vacation has been great so far. Tomorrow and Sat are going to be AMAZING.
Jordans home!

All is well in life.
Love to you allll. <3